I thought of that A lot .... I mean : have you ever felt like you don't know wither you have really done the right thing or not ?
Have you ever wondered if things suppose to be in this way ? if so then why i keep thinking about it a lot ? Like every single day ? Why Allah made me experience these feelings and ideas if nothing is going to happened next ? is it really the end ?
Not a single day passes without me thinking about that over and over again ....
Deep inside i believe that there must be a reason for what has happened .... but i don't know the reason yet and maybe i will never will ...
Lately i have been feeling a little bet depressed ... i really don't know why ... i don't know is it because i miss someone ... or because i miss my self ... or maybe because i feel like am not being able to be the person i want to be ....
I feel like being lost .... should i move on without looking back or should i stand still and wait .... Since a while i have been waiting ... but it has become so tiring for me .....
I have made up my mind .... i will move on ... i will move on for my self, my parents, my friends and every one who caresa bout me ....
I will become the person i have always dreamed to be .... i will graduate Inshallah with high marks and i will continue to become an excellent Surgeon Inshallah ... Nothing can stop me but my self ... so i won't stop ...
We all live once ... only once ... and i want that once to be enough .. so when i meet the lord i will be proud of what i have achieved in my life ... and when i die i want every one who knows me be proud of me ...
You may feel like " What the hell is she talking about !!! " , believe me; i feel like that too because me myself don't know how my brain works ...
So i guess " The End is Only the beginning " , I have always believed in that ...
And my friend ... you are the writer of your own movie , so don't let any one hold the pin ....
Duaa Rashid
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